Inside my head is a voice
I don’t think it’s mine
It holds conversations –
In whispers.
I’m not privy to its plans
And I’m not sure I want to be.
Just yesterday I caught it snickering –
As I fumbled with my laces.
‘Take them out’ it hissed.
I knew what it wanted,
So I quickly hurried to the street
And the deadening hubbub
Of a peak hour bustle.
It was rude with its comments.
I was embarrassed.
Wondering if others knew
That it railed against their very existence –
Sometimes I confront it,
‘You can’t speak that way’ I’ll say.
It just laughs and tells me to fuck off.
I know it wants me to end it –
Take us both over the edge of a cliff,
Or maybe bleed into a hot bath.
But I’m not ready.
I’m hoping it moves out soon –
Not sure how much longer
I can keep saying no.
*photo by Lyne
Thoughtful😮
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Excellent.
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Thank you
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Another ‘me’ resides among all of us…profound one, Andy… 🙂
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Thank you Maniparna 🙂
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I especially love the first five lines. FINALLY … someone who knows what it’s like to live inside my head.
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Reblogged this on Wild Currents and commented:
I read this poem and feel such relief … finally, someone out there understands what it’s like to live inside my head.
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I’m glad it reached out to you. 🙂 take care. Kind regards, Andy
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Very thoughtful!! Love it.
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Thank you Kally – I’m glad you enjoyed it 🙂
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I have to ask…
R U OK ?
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Thank you for asking tree girl 🙂 Yes I’m OK – I have friends who aren’t quite so ok, and I have drawn on their experiences… but they seem to have it under control. Hope 2016 is a year of achievement for you 🙂
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Thanks Andy. What you wrote was very realistic. It sounds like you have a lot of empathy for your friends.
Very best wishes to you !
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It’s so well written and such excellent poetry.
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Thank you Jade… for visiting my place and taking the time to read and comment – I really appreciate it. All the best for 2016 🙂
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You’re welcome…Thanks! Good luck for 2016 for you too 😉
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